yeah, it was more than alright

while driving to a doctors appointment on Wednesday 

I was actually able to listen to some music, 

rather than Wiggles since I didn't have the kids with me. 

Usually my music is just background noise and don't pay attention much. I happened to see Darius Rucker's name scrolling across the screen and although I don't know much about him or his music, I remember liking one of his other songs. I reach over and turned up the volume, thinking I could get in a mini jam session before pulling into the parking lot. 

big mistake.

By the 1st chorus I found myself in a completely uncontrollable cry fest.  

Alright, Alright
Yeah it's alright, alright

Don't need no five star reservations
I've got spaghetti and a cheap bottle of wine
Don't need no concert in the city
I've got a stereo and the best of Patsy Cline
Ain't got no caviar no Dom Perignon
But as far as I can see, I've got everything I want

Cause I've got a roof over my head,
the woman I love laying in my bed
And it's alright, alright
I've got shoes under my feet
Forever in her eyes staring back at me
And it's alright, alright
And I've got all I need
And it's alright by me

Maybe later on we'll walk down to the river
Lay on a blanket and stare up at the moon
It may not be no French Riviera
But it's all the same to me as long as I've got you

It may be a simple life, but that's okay
If you ask me baby, I think I've got it made

Cause I've got a roof over my head,
the woman I love laying in my bed
And it's alright, alright
I've got shoes under my feet
Forever in her eyes staring back at me
And it's alright, alright
And I've got all I need
And it's alright by me

It's alright by me, yeah yeah
When I lay down at night I thank the Lord above
For giving me everything I ever could dream of

Cause I've got a roof over my head,
the woman I love laying in my bed
And it's alright, alright, alright, alright
I've got shoes under my feet
Forever in her eyes staring back at me
And it's alright, alright, alright
And I've got all I need, yeah
I've got all I need
And it's alright by me
Oh yeah, it's alright by me

This is how I felt with Patrick. I had all I wanted. 

We had forever ahead of us.

I feel like it's all been ripped out from under me. 

With no explanation, no warning, ripped away in an instant.