I love birthdays. I always make a big deal out of them and my family usually hates me during the month of August. I guess it's because since I have an August birthday, I never got to be the center of attention on my birthday during the school year. All the other kids with birthdays during the school year have their moms bring cup
cakes, balloons, everyone sings to you.. all that hoopla.
Come August, my "birthday month" begins. Doesn't matter that it's on the 5th, at the beginning of the month. I try to stretch it the entire month, or as long as Patrick used to let me.
Turning 25 this year, I had two options. Do something or don't. With the death of my husband 7 months ago some people probably raised an eyebrow or two while I was planning my party or maybe once they saw the aftermath photos. I really don't give a damn though. This is my life and I dare any of them to attempt to walk in my shoes, for one single day. If there is anything {and, trust me it's been more than one} that I've leaned from January 11th, it's life is too short. People always say it nonchalantly but now I am living that "saying". When Patrick turned 25 in 2008 I contemplated throwing him a surprise 25th birthday. I decided I would just wait until 30. Now, I will never get that chance. I should have done it at 25. You just never know. I often wonder, including during my party, if people are looking at me and think, "She looks happy." "She looks ok, she must be healed." If they are, they are f@*$ing nuts. I will never be over this. I will never be healed. It will never be the same. It will just be different.
So a week before my birthday I decided to throw myself a black & white birthday...
with a little 5 year old twist.
Princess castle bounce house and pinata included...
and a little beerpong can never hurt.
Patrick's best friend
The bounce house resulted in some hilarious outakes. 
someone turned the compressor off..WHILE we were in it!
42 comments:
Looks like an amazing party, a lot of fun, good for you!
Amber W.
The party looks fabulous! I love the bounce house and now I would like to rent one! LOL.
Who cares what other people think. You are the only know who knows what this is like for you. As for P's 30th, I think you should still have a giant bash!!!
You deserve a party for your birthday and any other day if you wish! Looks like such a great time! I dare anyone to say anything about it, like you said, until they walk a day in your shoes, they have no place to talk.
Erynn, I don't know how anyone could think that you are fine just because you had a bday party...but if they do, screw them! You have done an amazing job of going on living, and Patrick would be so proud of that. And just because you can laugh and smile for a night doesn't mean that you are all better, but it does mean that you get a little break from reality, even if it's just a few minutes. Wish I could have been there...I hope you were having as much fun as it looks like you were having = )
xoxo
I say F anyone who dares Judge you for a bday party. Looks like a blast.
This makes me so happy to see Erynn. You deserve a party any day you feel like having one. As you have learned (the hard way) each day is not guaranteed. Live every moment like it's your last. I am sure this is how P would want you to live your life. Your 25th is HUGE and I am so happy you did this.
You are an AMAZING person!
xoxo ~ Jacki
You had a great party and I'm glad you did it - for yourself! Live life to the fullest, enjoy the people around you, and try to make a difference for good in all you do and say! Way to go!
Looks like such a blast!
Glad you had a party and celebrated your birthday! You deserve it!
Looks like your party was a blast. I hope you had some fun!
=)
Your party looks like so much fun! You deserve it! Enjoy the rest of your bday month!!
Wow, great party! Again, happy birthday. Do what you want, girl!
Rock on w/ your badass self, E! I love it!
I agree with Shelley...."F" anyone who judges you. Any one at any given time can come over and live our deep dark pain each and every day. Oh, and try to raise two kids too.
I love you...Mom xoxo
Hey Erynn, I Love that you try and stretch out your b-day celebration for the whole month. We tend to do the same thing with Tracie's any excuse for a party, drinks and food!!!
It is wonderful seeing the fun you had on your 25th!! You go girl and I hope to see many more photos in the future of you enjoying life when you can. No one deserves that more than you:)
I am so glad that you had such a fun birthday. I remember after my brother died, my parents and I would feel so guilty if we laughed or smiled or if we *gasp* had fun. NO ONE has walked in your shoes and P would have wanted you to be happy and I am sure he was getting a laugh out of you in that bounce house. So find happiness where you can and run with it. You deserve it. <3 ya
I love you to pieces and had SUCH a blast at your party....the most fun we have had in a LONG time...It's still August...what do we have planned for the rest of the month? :) hehe xoxo...
PS - I love the pic of us holding hands in the bounce house...I love that we felt 5 again and ate up every moment of it....
I'm glad you had a great birthday--you deserve it! I agree-live life to the fullest! xo
It looks like you had a wonderful party and heaps of fun. You definitely deserve it!
Wow, that looks like a GREAT time! Makes me think there should be a blown up castle at every birthday party, no matter what age! Great pictures too!
Happy birthday!
My goodness . . . who in the world would judge you for appreciating and celebrating your birthday?! You deserve joy in your life, and - as I'm sure you've heard others say - your husband and father-in-law would want only happiness for you and your children.
I hope you had a wonderful time! God bless you!
Good for you! I love that you are the only one in color at your b&w party!! :) I hope you had an amazing time - and don't worry what other people say - everyone is ALWAYS going to talk - live your life for you & your family!
Happy Birthday, I am so excited you threw a party and had a wonderful time. August has 14 more days left, enjoy them all!! Summer
Good for you!!! Happy Birthday!
Good for you! and anyone that can sit there and judge you obviously haven't walked in your shoes. I'm sure P and your FIL would want you to continue living and celebrating the way you always did. Just because you had one day of smiles and fun...doesn't mean you're over P and not mourning him and the life you had...the future you planned with him. LIFE IS SHORT! so enjoy it every minute of every day. Sending you hugs XX
You look hot! Looks like a great party and screw everyone else. It's YOUR life- live it how you want to!
Looks like fun, I love how you wore a green shirt. Great pics!
You deserve a party like this! Looks like you had a fun time!
Looks like you had a fun birthday! You deserve it!
"I will never be over this. I will never be healed. It will never be the same. It will just be different." Those lines really stuck with me. You an amazing women I am so glad you are continuing to live your life to the fullest everyday, event and celebration even with all the pain you have in your heart. You are inspirational, your attitude is amazing. Happy Birthday Month!!!! XOXO
I'm so glad you had a wonderful birthday and party. Good for you for throwing yourself a party. I can't think of ANYONE that deserves it more!
xoxo
Looks like you had a much deserved good time.
I know all about not being used to something but just having life be different. I was paralyzed at 18. Life has to go on but it doesnt mean you are "better" or "back to normal". Normal is something new now.
Good for you, Erynn- you deserve to throw yourself a party as often as you want!
I agree with Alison!
I love these pics. You definitely deserve some fun in your life. Who cares if someone else has an opinion.
You are 25 for God's sake! You have been through a horrific tragedy. You deserve a jump house, to have your cake and eat it too. People who think otherwise, well, they don't matter and obviously don't truly care about you and your well being. It brings me a lot of joy to see you having so much fun on your birthday!! The only thing that upsets me....I wasn't there. <3 you.
Good for you Erynn! :) Looks like a fabulous birthday and made some wonderful memories. Anyone judging you for that is just plain out of their mind!
Diane and I had a whole conversation this weekend about how much we hate you and your ability to wear skinny white pants after you just had 2 kids. YOU SUCK. ;)
I say... YOU DO WHATEVER MAKES YOU HAPPY!!! I loved the pictures, they brought a smile to my face. Happy Belated Birthday to you!!
Anyone that has the guts to say ANYTHING is just wrong. You have done an AMAZING job carrying on and living your life, no matter how hard each day is. People should look up to you and be inspired by what an amazing woman, mother and wife you are. Just because P is gone, doesn't mean your life has to stop and you cant do things for YOU. I couldnt even begin to imagine a day in your shoes and the times that I do, it makes me heart broken for you and even brings me to tears. You do whats best for YOU. And I think you are doing one hell of a job. xoxoxo
Sarah, I am seriously laughing out loud. I love you guys!
I wish I could have been there to celebrate Y-O-U. I'm so thankful for that August day you were born! Love my bff!
First off, where do you get off looking so hot all the time? Dang girl, making the rest of us look bad. ;)
You deserve all the best Erynn, so screw anyone who even tries to judge you. Looks like a great party! xo
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