juggling act

for a little background... Patrick & I have two adorable puppies, Duke {choc lab} and Daisy {cocker spaniel}. Daisy was my wedding gift from P. We picked them up after we returned from our honeymoon on the same day, so they have been together ever since. They will be 3 next month, so I guess they aren't really considered puppies anymore but they sure act like it. 

P did everything for the pups. He picked up the poop, washed them, fed, them, walked them, threw balls for them, trained them. You name it he, he did it. The only time I did these things was when he was traveling for work. Picking up poop literally makes me gag, especially while pregnant. 

After Patrick died all those responsibilities shifted to who else but me. Plus the addition of Miss Reese, it's a little overwhelming at times. 2 dogs, 2 babies under 2, no husband. I feel horrible for Duke because he was Patrick's dog and he is a very loyal dog. He adored Patrick and went into the office with him almost daily {as I took Daisy into mine when I was working}. Before the accident Patrick was training for a half marathon and often too Duke on his runs to exercise him. 

I've decided that once I move at the end of the year, Patrick's brother is going to take Duke. He is a huge dog lover and Duke will get loads of attention from him. I also know that P's bro feels a connection to P through Duke and it will be good for the both of them. I'm thankful Duke will be able to remain in the family so I can see him whenever I want. I am a little worried about separating the two but I have to do what's best for me at this point.