Tuesday, September 8, 2009

never alone

i  just received an email from an address that I didn't recognize.. I almost deleted it thinking it was spam. I clicked on it and within 24 seconds I had to pause the video. Wasn't sure if I could go on, but I did. 

The song alone kills me. Nevermind the photos. 
Good thing I haven't put any makeup on yet for the day. 
Now I'm going to need a little extra to cover up these puffy eyes. 
Never alone, but it sure feels like it.
I miss you so incredibly much. 

Thank you to the person who took the time and effort to send this to me. It hits so close to home. 


41 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh Erynn. My heart just aches for you. I started watching this, but I'm at work, so I'll have to watch the rest at home - too many tears for the office.

Glenda said...

Erynn, My heart aches for you! This is such a beautiful and thoughtful video. Sending you hugs! XX

Perfectly Imperfect said...

wow. incredible video. you're in my prayers girl. keep your chin up...

MrsKBJ said...

Wow, that is really sweet of them to send that to you. It brought tears to my eyes. xoxo

Shana said...

Wow. What a touching song and video. You're in my prayers always, E.

julie said...

beautiful video.

kari said...

such a beautiful video, praying for you. you are such a strong woman.

Heather said...

Oh my goodness...what a thoughtful thing to do!! That is sooo sweet, and yea now I'm in tears too!! Oh Erynn....hang in there sweetie!! P is always with you!

Shannon Dew said...

WOW that was very sweet. Like all the other followers, I am in tears too. I pray for you and your family every day.

April said...

Oh, Erynn. I can't listen/watch right now. No crying at work. But I love this song if it's the one I think it is. Lady Antebellum? I almost had it as a dance at my wedding. You've given it new meaning. I'll have to watch later.

Praying for you all the time. XOXO. April

Courtney said...

If that was hard for me to watch and brought me to tears, i cant even imagine what it was like for you. I ADORE that song (1 of my fav bands) but now it has a whole new meaning. What a great video, with perfect words. Whoever send that did a great job and was so sweet. You have been in my thoughts and prayers since Jan 11 anad you will continue to be forever. xoxo

Anonymous said...

Your welcome...I know that your pain and loss is deep. I never know what to post, so I just dont, but I do know music can heal the soul, even if it's just for 3 minutes and 40 seconds. You, and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Mommy2twnsandsissy

erynn said...

^ thank you SO much!

Anonymous said...

I have been following your posts for a few months. This one really got to me...The message is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

jenni from the blog said...

Omg, E... I am sobbing right now. Sobbing. It's just so beautiful and SO TRUE!

xoxo

Jen said...
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J @ The Look 4 Less said...

What a sweet and touching video, it brought tears to my eyes. I think of you and your family all the time. Hang in there.

(the previous post was mine, I was signed in under a different acct. so I deleted it)

The Hunnicutts said...

xoxo

avgypsy said...

That was so moving, my heart was even crying! Such a wonderful thing for someone to do for you, such a keepsake! xo

Anonymous said...

That was amazing. You are in my thoughts and prayers so often. You have some amazing photos that will live forever. That brought me to tears. Hang in there, hon. You have so many people praying for you and rooting for you.

Heather said...

What an sweet video - gave me chills. Still thinking of you all the time. xoxo

Anonymous said...

Such a sweet video. You have touched so many lives Erynn.

Wendy said...

Wow. I have not cried like that in a long time. I cannot begin to imagine how you felt when you watched. It takes a special person to make something like that.
xoxo

jen said...

amazing. i've left a few comments before - got your blog from Matt. I have a feeling all the creeps are creepin' in :) We're all fighting for you Erynn - each and everyone of us.

Jen said...

xoxo.. so beautiful.

Mrs Montoya said...

I know you didn't sign up for this, but you ARE an inspiration to so many others. God Bless you and those beautiful babies. The video is such a powerful reminder of something beautiful that created living memories in Will and Reese.

Bren said...

Beautiful video! HUGS E!!

Burn this, and burn it again, then save it somewhere else, save it to an online servies, etc. Do that with everything.

I lost the video my friend made of Aaron in a system crash and she doesn't have it any more. I almost lost all of my photos but they got recovered... and then lost again (but still on an old hard drive if I can find it). I would hate for you to lose anything.

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The Perry Fam said...

Thank you for sending that to me this morning, Erynn. My mom isn't a blog follower, so I shared it with her. It was beautiful!

Amber said...

omg wow . not much else I can even think to say... I am saddened that your posts remind me every single day no matter how insignificant something is, it matters, and I'm so sorry your horrible loss makes me remember that.

Erika Johnson said...

I don't know you (I'm a friend of Shelbie Molnars & her sister's, also my parents are friends of the Wallachs) But, I check on your blog occasionally...I just wanted to let you know that you're in my prayers constantly & your babies too. I don't even know you & my heart aches for you. You're a beautiful young lady & God will get you through this & you'll never forget, but in time I pray it gets easier for you & you seek more & more happy times...take care...Erika

Shelley said...

What a beautiful video and song.

Anonymous said...

That was amazing, and so true P does hold you while you sleep..you are in our prayers. I am at work with no makeup..going to be along day.

Anonymous said...

What was the singers name and song that was on your engagement video pics?

Jeannie said...

::wipes tears:: That is absolutley beautiful!!! What a great collection of memories and the song is just perfect.

Anonymous said...

If 3 min & 40 secs. could sum up your story THIS IS IT!!! I have followed your blog since about Febuary. You never fail to fascinate me with your strength,your love & your pain, that your willing to share. I am positive you dispersed your pain to all your followers with this post. Keep on girl, we are all here to help you close that broken heart a little more each day, each post, each tear

Britt said...

Erynn, this is just beautiful. I am sitting here crying my eyes out... your babies are beautiful and the person who made that video is right: P is always with you, every step of the way and will help you get through, even though sometimes it won´t feel like it. I hope that you will get another shot at being really happy again, because if any person deserves it, than it is you! Hugs from the other end of the world, Britt

Rebecca said...

This was an amazing and thoughtful video that brought tears to my eyes, a perfect stranger to you. I don't know how you watched it, but i can guarantee that each time you do, you will get stronger and stronger. The words are so true and he will be with you forever. Know that.

Anonymous said...

I'm a widow too, also with two young children. It took years to even be able to own the word "widow." You're not supposed to lose your husband at 25.

This post has me sitting over here in tears. Some days it's so hard to even get out of bed. I miss my husband so much it hurts.

Keep strong. Keep rolling. He's watching over you and your sweet angel babies. Just like my husband is watching over us.

Unknown said...

Beautiful. That teared me up.

Anonymous said...

This was an amazing video! Thank you for sharing! I cried the entire time I was watching it! I'm so sorry for your loss!